Jehovah’s Witness elder clears his conscious
Hello, my name is Dave and I am one of Jehovah’s Witnesses.
I haven’t said that for probably 12 years now and will never say it again after making this video. I am doing this video in hope that it will help start 2013, first day tomorrow, out with a completely clean slate. It’s my way of making an effort to share my life story with you, so if you are contemplating becoming Jehovah’s Witness, or are Jehovah’s Witnesses without the strength to leave the organization – I’m hoping that this personal story of mine will help you do that.
Early in my life that was in the fourth or fifth grade when my parents, mostly my dad at first, became a Jehovah’s Witness later my Catholic mom finally succumbed to his influence and became a witness. This is back right around 1970-71. My little brother was a freshman in high school – fought my father, but ended up kind of following the religion until at 17 he ran away.
I have an older sister and a younger sister. My older sister, she killed herself. This year march of this year. She put a gun to her head. Blew her brains out right in front of her ex-husband. She was a Jehovah’s Witness and there are many reasons why she could have done that, and i think only one reason why she shouldn’t, because she was really loved by a lot of people, but yet she couldn’t feel the love. All she could see was the daily grind of being a Jehovah’s Witness. A never-ending carrot that they stuck in front of her face.
When my brother left, right away as kids we were taught by my dad that it would be better off if he died in a plane crash or a car crash or some sort of accident, because he was outside the Jehovah’s Witness organization now. The only way he would survive into the new world, would be to be part of the organization again or get resurrected if he died in the system of things.
These are some of the teachings I was taught growing up as a Jehovah’s Witness.
My grandparents were not Jehovah’s Witness. Both of my Italian grandmothers are Catholic. Many years she was gonna die – be destroyed by God along, with my dad’s mom.
None of us kids never graduated high school. We are all taught that school was evil and unnecessary. Why go to school when the world is going to end in 1975? Your time is better spent proselytizing, preaching and reading the Bible – so we never graduated high school.
My little sister Elaine started saying at 16 years of age, I want to get married. This was not uncommon for people to marry young, yet that was a little young and she fought and fought with my dad. Finally he agreed to let her get married, because in six months he was so sure the world was coming to an end. The system will be here in six months, so he agreed. She’s been married for forty years now.
Some of the other things that I had to deal with as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses is a lack of any association with anybody that wasn’t a witness. Even when I was going to school or in order to have a school friend over, I had to study the Bible with him and now we could play. Study the Bible, now we could play some more. I even had some friends that would do that. Sorry about that guys.
As I grew older, got married and had kids, I became even more serious about this religion. I felt like it was my obligation or as I was taught, it was my obligation to save them, because the world was coming to an end any minute now. Any day now time was very scarce as they would say, so I continued to buy in – hook, line and sinker.
As a pioneer ministerial servant and elder, I spent hours and hours teaching people this religion.
It was not until later in life, when my kids were little older, in their teenage years – they moved to California and got in a little trouble. Talking to them and really understanding their so-called rebellion. I as an elder and with elder body, I just woke up.
I just decided I am putting ourselves through all this pain and the suffering. Why?
Why are we continuing to be taught new truth? And and how is the light getting brighter? What was the matter with the light just a week ago? And now we have more information and new things.
I just started thinking to myself there’s something wrong here.
Finally, it really sunk in at 1995. I was conducting the Watchtower Study November First and that paragraph, one paragraph in that Watch Study, it changed the doctrine of Jehovah’s Witnesses’ forever.
The doctrine that dealt with the generation that would still be alive when armageddon came – when the new system came. That generation that saw the original signs in 1914. That was something that always was always there. A threshold generation will not pass. And in that one paragraph, in 1995, they eliminated thousands and thousands of articles and sermons that dealt with this generation, that will by no means pass away.
The scripture is in Matthew and what they meant and how they explained it, is that this generation could be any generation that could see the signs. Whether in history books or right before them. So instantly, now, there is no time frame. And everybody that was waiting and hoping and watching for the age of that generation, all of a sudden, realize that that their light, their life is just lies. Lies on top of lies to cover up their ignorance, of course.
Leaving Jehovah’s Witness religion is not easy. It’s not easy for me either, but it was a little easier for me because I just picked up the family and moved away. We went to California and moved to Oregon. Of course, the witnesses track me down and tried to encourage me to come back into the fold, but I had nothing to do with it.
Of course my family didn’t want to talk to me and that hurt for a while. My mom always wanted to talk to me, but the only way I could talk to her is when I called and nobody was around. My dad would hang up the phone and when my dad died in 2003, after not talking to me for five years, my mom moved in with my sisters and then they would let her talk to me, but that she would not let her talk to me from time to time, but that stopped about three or four years ago.
It took almost a court order or police action for me to actually see my mom. I wanted my mom to tell me that she didn’t want to see me and of course she did, so they decided to let me see her in person, face-to-face, but still never talked to her on the phone.
That changed recently when my sister killed herself. My little sister is our mom’s guardian now and has decided, thankfully, that she will not stop my mom from talking to me. She feels that her mom has lost her older daughter and now you know she’s getting old, she may pass on soon, and talking to me brings some enjoyment into her life, so it’s acceptable.
My mom even came up and visited me this last week. I just went down and picked her up and took her back home and it was a wonderful time to see my mom. She calls me a twice a week now or I call her twice a week and I’m thankful for that.
I hope that people will take some time to look at their lives. Really look into this organization and see what it does to people. See how it changes people’s minds and lives and not for the better. No.
There are a lot of good people in this world. I found a family that loves me and I love them. I have true friends that care about me more than any Jehovah’s Witness friend I ever had.
I hope that you out there can find the strength to do the same. There’s a lot of people out there that are going to help you. A lot of former Jehovah’s Witness that are looking to help.
I hope this video will help you in your lives and you will be able to find something that can make you happy starting tomorrow, 2013 and for the rest of your life.